Motherhood did not come naturally to me. My older sister has three kids as well and before I gave birth, I thought it looked easy from the outside.
Motherhood is probably the toughest job that I have ever taken on! It was a steep learning curve, from differentiating baby cries to breastfeeding. There were also many sleepless nights and having to cope with my body changing.
I used to open my wardrobe full of clothes, but not be able to fit into anything. It took me about a year and more to return to how I looked like before pregnancy. It’s actually quite daunting! I didn’t know what to do with all my clothes and kept thinking about the size of my body.
I also felt that I was gradually losing my identity — that I was no longer myself and just the mother of my child. When I had my first kid, I didn’t know what was required of me. I was also very sleep-deprived and found everything difficult to handle. At some points I even thought, why did I have a kid to torture myself?